Emptiness

Hello my blog.

I'm not writing acoording to my schedule because scheduling sucks.

I'm having a problem.A problem with my heart.It is empty.

I don't wanna fill it with humans.I don't wanna fill it with fun and joy.

I wanna fill it with the truth.But what is the truth?

Why do I live?
What is the reason?

To serve God?
How?

The word that is brought upon me is not enough.Enlighten me.I am suffering.

Wait.You don't just wait for angels to bring down messages from heaven.You go and find it yourself.Sure you have limits.But you at least you tried.

Go and find your God.Don't expect your Creator to just come down and present Himself to you.A puny mass of nanoscopic matter in this wide universe.That is what you are.You should try to reach Him.Not the other way around.

Ahh.So confusing.The world is so painful to live in.Sometimes I just hoped I died.But I have a purpose.A purpose that I do not discover yet.

Maybe even purposes.